12.38AM,10 August 2012.
Tears starts to slip through my eyes. Recalled the unforgettable mistakes that I have done throughout my entire life. Part one : 9 years ago, i disgraced my parents by showing poor results in UPSR. To be honest, im supposed to enter preperation class instead of From One class, but because that year most of the weeker students failed in their Bahasa Malaysia paper, so i guess there is no room for me. Thank God i entered From One even it was like third last class out of ten classes total. I got D for my Bahasa Malaysia Permahaman, and C for my Bahasa Malaysia Karangan. I learned the lesson, should have worked hard in past. But never mind, i still have a bright future. Three years later, PMR - moderate results, entered Science Stream Classes, which initially i thought that it was so highly educated, ended up im totally wrong. It is because my school has a typical policy that students have to be filled up in the science stream classes first then the rest will be placed in the art stream. Well, not too bad i guess, i entered the second last class of six classes. Form four well known as honey moon year, for me, it was just partially. I worked hard and played hard. It is equal, astonishly get into 100 out of 300 + position ranking. This was the moment i felt proud to be Chee's family. Friends were jealous and envy about me, some even teased us (students from lower classes) should not enter better class, form five, i was being shifted to thrid class. Damn it! First day, i entered the classx it was like hell prisoning, everyone was busying pre preparing for their upcoming monthly test, and me just know how to loiter around, mixing some new friends. Almost reaching May of that year, i felt tired of chasing after the burdening work, i took a rest like a month of it. Fcuk! Results shown in trial sucks till the maximum, mommy scolded me like mad, she cried from heartnand i could feel that, in order to solve this matter, i quit all coco activities, took extra tuition classes and even form study group in public library, studying from morning 9 to 6 pm. Kinda exhausted everyday. Mommy started to motivate me. Well, as her son, i should!
SPM- life turning point. Satisfying results 6A 5B.
Went to National Service. Came back, i entered Form Six. Before that everyone including seniors, teachers and lecturers advised me not to take this path, that time i was too clueless in my future plan, so life has to go on. Lower six enjoyed well, results okayy, when it came to Upper six, syllibi were rushed to be completed, and i got too involved in coco activities, neglected my studies. Result came out cgpa 2.33. Didn't get any offer.
This is the life point my parents especially mommy starting to worry about my job career, everytime they asked me what i want to continue to study? Engineering, economics, accountancy, hospitality, culinary or others, but my hope was to become a pilot,failed due to eyesight,second was a designer whatever design,just drawing will do. Thought of architecture, but course fee expensive, interior design, parents do not allow, mommy cried and quarelled with me regarding this topic. i remembered and captured her facial expression that time, was hurting inside my heart. Mommy never did that previously.
One day, i got so frustrated of further studies. Took my time read through some blogs and forum. A senior from my school , smjk Sam Tet named May Wen if im not mistaken, she posted something regarding Yayasan Tenaga Nasional. I clicked into the advertisment and got to know about Universiti Tenaga Nasional UNITEN. Amazing with it and discovered the course that i prefer alternatively, Civil Engineering. I applied online and also to Yayasan Tenaga Nasional. 3 days later, i got offer from UNITEN, SHOCKED ! Is Civil Engineering. The second that i receieved the confirmation email, ran upstairs while mommy was sleeping, she was kind of pissed off because i made a decision so sudden. 2 days later, daddy sent me from ipoh to KL,UNITEN to explore the environment and pay foe BNK. 3 weeks after that, started my first semester, met new friends and two good news were im offered from Yayasan Tenaga Nasional and Yayasan Perak.
I flew up the sky. Never thought of it, so lucky get it. Studies are secured,expenses are done.
First semester result 4.0
Second semester result 3.96
Third semester result 4.0, hopefully
But today, i cried, it is because i got the feeling back from 9 years and 2 years ago. They are the same! punchering througb my heart, it bleeds. No matter what im gonna full blast this time, left 3 weeks to go, have to tackle 7 subjects. This is difficult, but i have not, parents now are not working, i cannot depend on then too long and have to plan and aim for my future. Thank God that im given the opportunity to learn to earn living since young age. Im proudly to announce that my working experience is that deep until i felt mesmorizing.
PrayToGod, it never fails to help you!
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